The wreck before the storm…

​I guess this past week was a little bit of a fluke… I felt great physically and mentally while on tapercation and selective workouts and I thought maybe it was to good to be true. Unfortunately it was…
When I have nervousness I only know how to do 3 things: drink heavily, run and write. Well, I can’t do the 1st 2 so here it is.
I have bowling ball sized knots in my stomach I can’t get rid of. I have focused on this race for an entire year and I keep wondering if I made a mistake. I know the world is watching and I’m so scared of failing and letting people down it hurts my heart… I don’t think people are watching because I’m anything special. I don’t think anyone wants me to fail either. In fact it’s the opposite. I think people NEED me to finish and finish strong. 
I don’t do what I do for any other reason than to show people what you can do if you have a positive mindset, set high goals and work your ass off toward those goals. I think and I give people hope. I know how hard it is to change you life. I know what it takes day in and day out. I’m not perfect. Far from it actually… I think this is why people need me to succeed. I know some people have all but given up on their goals. Some people don’t believe in themselves or think their too far behind the eight ball to come back.
I’m out to prove NOTHING is impossible for others by showing the way. Run Epic was born out of this idea. The motto Out Run Your Excuses came from the idea of showing others the way through action, not Bull Shit. I would never ask someone to do anything I’m not willing to do myself. This is why I never say no until I have to. This is why I do the crazy things I do, run and train like crazy and why I am absolutely horrible at talking about the way I eat. 
I want you to know that no matter what your current situation is, if you’re willing to take action One Step at a Time you can accomplish anything you set your mind to. Be willing to go out on a limb, stand on a mountain top, and dance in the rain with the whole world watching.
Tomorrow is going to be my toughest challenge yet and I’m scared to death. I’m so scared to fail publicly but I have no choice… When I step up to the starting line and the gun goes off I’m racing for YOU. I’m racing to show that it’s ok to change. It’s ok to be different. It’s ok to try new things and shoot for the moon. When all this is said and done, whether I cross the finish line or fail at the 1st aid station, I took a shot at helping others become a better person. I took a shot at the “impossible”. Hell, I’ve become a better person over the last year because of this goal.
When I signed up for Silver Rush I had no idea what I was doing. I knew I wanted something big and I knew this had a shot of being “it”. The last step is to start the race, work hard, cross the finish line and never give up. One day I will help someone change for the better, live a healthier lifestyle, run a 5k, be a better spouse, parent or maybe something bigger. One day I want to meet someone that says because of you I didn’t give up, I made a much needed change and became a better person. 
For some people I’m an egotistic, big headed showoff. I’m fine with that. Because anything worth doing is going to get a lot of criticism. Someone once told me that if you want to be President of the US, get half of the country to hate you… Interesting advice but I’ve found it to be very true. 
Tomorrow when I cross that finish line I am crossing it for you. I want you to know how important you are to me. I want you to know that I will NEVER give up on you. Win or lose I am not done. Win or lose we are going to move forward together.
I need to succeed for you. I need to succeed for my boys, for Nikki, and my friends. I need to succeed to show someone that anything is possible. I look forward to sharing the wins and losses so you can know how hard it is and that it is worth every step, every day.
Thank you for all the kind wishes, support, positivity and everything else you have done for me. I hope one day in the future I can return the favor. Have your best day yet. Gary

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