I wish I could tell you my 50 was epic… Truthfully though, it felt more like a really long training run. I have known for a long time I wanted to do the Leadville 100. It was one reason I wanted to do Silver Rush as my 1st 50. I wanted to know what it was like there; the terrain, the elevation, atmosphere, and I wanted to see the 100 course.
I believe in seeing things, vision boards, dreams, and positive thinking. I know what I can create something in my head I can create in the world. I think my training partners thought I was a bit off my rocker when I told them a couple weeks ago that I was going to win the lottery after my race… At that time I just saw it as a good sign I would finish my race. I began to see myself winning the lottery. As soon as I got my bib number I would repeat it several times a day while envisioning them calling my number. I felt it in my head and my heart what it would feel like to win. I thought about it over and over and over again over every single day. When Ken drew my number, I saw my dream come true…
Don’t get me wrong, crossing the finish line was a big accomplishment for me, but as it’s Thursday (and now Sunday, a week after I finished the race) I still feel like a stone wall. I have logically processed every single mile of the race and haven’t shown myself one bit of emotion since I actually crossed the finish line… If you know me at all, this isn’t how I operate. I always show emotion. I wear my heart on my sleeve and you can always tell what’s on my mind because of the expression on my face. Not this week. It’s like a stone. I feel like it didn’t even happen. In fact if there weren’t pictures, I would have thought it was all just a dream… (I’ve stared and shared these pictures looking for some of that emotion again…) I’m focused. I’m ready to take on the 13 months of challenges leading up to Leadville 100 in 2017.
I have not had a problem overeating this week- that’s weird for me… I have struggled with this over the last 60 days and couldn’t seem to control it. I have had zero trouble resting, properly recovering and not working out. This again is not normal. Writer’s block, yes, all week. I have already set my goals for LT100 and I’m ready to get moving on them, NOW! I have already set my time goal, eating goals, weight goals, mileage goals, cross training goals, and put a plan of action in place for the next 13 months. I realized when I crossed that finish line and won that coin, I have been putting this together for years. I have done the impossible and have been given another difficult task. There is a reason I won that coin right now instead of waiting until January to find out I’m in.
Maybe when I get over the Post Race Blues
, I’ll be able to process what has happened. Maybe someday soon I’ll be able to sit down and write a Race Report. For now though, I can’t wait for me to start feeling some emotion again. It’s time to move on and get ready for the challenges ahead. Call me crazy, but that sub 25 hour LT100 buckle is calling my name and I’m ready to answer…
Run Epic My Friends!