I needed to be awakened.

I needed to see the light.

I needed to have my heart broken in the middle of the night.

It was in the darkest part of the night that I realized love was out of sight.

I saw you before the railroad tracks and it turns out your heart was full of cracks.

I loved you then and I love you still but your will never make me feel.

It’s hard to do when you can’t love you, how are you supposed to love me.

As hard as it is to just be me, you still couldn’t see.

The toughness it took to pass that look brought it all onto me.

I was empty and numb as you just stared dumb as I ran far away from you.

You looked at me and I just couldn’t see it was the moment you stole away from me.

I wrote a story that was supposed to end but here I am picking up my pen again.

It took me a year to move past my fear of leaving you behind.

I wished I had left when you didn’t want me to stay so it wouldn’t have ended this way.

At a time I was lost, I went looking for Hope and there you were to help me cope.

I thought for sure it was too good to be real and then my fears made me feel.

To the top of a mountain I went on the worst day of my life with hope I would end all the strife.

I saw you up there with the wind in your hair and the beautiful glaze in your eyes.

I knew that day I would never feel this way but somehow you took it away.

I lost my way all the way to you knowing you were never here to stay.

A broken heart in my chest I moved out of your nest to give you the space you need.

In the end it was me who needed to leave so you could discover your own way.

The best gift I gave you I should have saved for me because you squandered it any way.

I will leave this right here knowing you will never appear until the day I have no fear.

I know where I’ll see you and I’m sure to be free from the chains you tied me away.

I will see you there and I just won’t care because I’ll be leaving for the darkness again.

I can promise you this, you won’t get a kiss from the rock you didn’t choose to love.

In the middle of the night when you can’t see the light, know Sunshine will be alright.

If it was up to you, the sun wouldn’t shine through and you would hide it away from the world.

It doesn’t matter how numb or just to dumb you think you could take it away.

There is one thing you forgot to see and it is what you’ll long for in your dreams.

You won’t see me calling you Hope after you hung me with a rope.

I might just be able to see the clearest I’ve ever been.

I can’t thank you enough for letting me be even after you emptied me.

In the process of healing I just had a feeling I would come out better in the end.

I am solid as a rock and as bright as the sun and without you I’ll have more fun.

I promise you this, I just won’t miss the pain of being numb.

I won’t let you be my own misery and as you begin your next journey in life.

Know I won’t miss you when you think of me and in the end it was your fault.

I don’t place blame and I have no shame because in the end I found my own way.

To the top of a mountain and in crossing the valley I trusted myself once more.

I climbed a mountain to find Hope and there you were…

Looking for your own version of Sunshine.

It might just be a misunderstanding but in the end I wouldn’t give it back.

You taught me a lot and gave me a cot to survive when I needed to stay.

I gave you love and you pushed me away and for that I have one thing to say.

In all my time on planet earth, I have never felt this way…

But one thing is for certain I will continue moving forward without you.

I will not dwell in sorrow and refuse to borrow the energy of another person.

As you continue on when you find it’s all gone, you will wake up feeling regret.

You will see the sun shining brighter than ever over a familiar place you know…

The place you’ll know where the trees can’t grow but the flags are free in the wind.

As you become just a passer by there will be no wave or hello.

You have become a ghost when I needed you most and for that you will receive this reply;

Published by Gary Stotler

Gary Stotler is a father, running, fitness, weight loss and personal development addict. Formally 400 pounds, Gary has naturally lost 200 pounds, created a coaching & speaking business and has become a 100 mile ultra-runner. Holding a degree in Psychology & Sociology, certifications from the National Academy of Sports Medicine as a personal trainer, mindset & behavioral modification coaching, a certification in DISC personality assessment coaching and he is a certified speaker, coach & mentor with the John Maxwell Team. Gary firmly believes, if we take One Step at a Time, nothing is impossible. He is determined to let his actions show people what is possible and hopes to help you shake up your thoughts, change your actions and create your future.

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